Wednesday, June 1, 2011

miracles...

I was blessed to witness a miracle today, a miracle of life..

I was with a loved one when she passed away..

I say miracle because that is exactly what it feels like it was.. a calm and peaceful end to a wondrous love filled life.. I feel somehow honoured to have been near as she slipped quietly from this world, free of her struggle with illness, much like as in life with no fuss... I sit here only a short couple of hours after saying my final goodbye with a kiss to her forehead and a last touch of her loving hands.. and I am at peace... my heart is broken, shattered and I am missing her sweet laugh already, but to have been present and having her allow me to be so, has no words yet that quite fit the moment... only a stream of tears...



I know that nothing will ever fill the void that her passing leaves in our lives.. see, she was our "go to girl", our source of outstretched arms of Love in ANY situation... she told it like it was but with such grace and style, never an "I told you so" in all the years I was blessed to know her.. she never told you more than she thought you could handle and was the closest I have ever met to real and honest unconditional Love.. if you had a good heart and didn't hurt people, you were her kind of person.. she welcomed into her home and life, anyone we cared for... she was our Matriarch, our glue, our hostess, our counsellor, our Love...
bless you Rita, for the Love, the Grace, the compassion and for being exactly who you were..

I think there were many miracles today, knowing her, loving her and being there to say goodbye... until I can see that smile and feel your touch again, I will carry you in my heart and live the lessons you taught..

14 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry for your loss. Rita sounds like a wonderful woman, that was a lovely post.

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  2. A beautiful tribute to a very special sounding lady.

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  3. My thoughts go out to you and those who loved her, Ry.

    You described perfectly the feelings when my grandma passed away. It's heartbreaking and beautiful and .. and everything.

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  4. Absolutely beautiful! Well stated. She must have been a magnificent women. Sorry for your loss, Ryan......Teri and Jeff

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  5. Thank you everyone for your thoughts and prayers. Rita was indeed an amazing women, and not just because she is gone do I write these words about her. This is who she was... if any one of you had known her, you would know my words ring true.

    Bless you friends.

    Ry

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  6. May God bless and comfort you, Ryan, in your great loss. And thank you for sharing the most beautiful tribute that Rita received from you. If you were fortunate to have her in your life, she was also fortunate to have someone like you in hers, who loved and respected her so much. Bobbie

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  7. So beautiful. We could all wish for such peace at the end of our lives and to have left such a wonderful imprint on the hearts of others. I'm sorry for your grief, but thank you for taking the time to write this.

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  8. Ryan, I'm so so sorry. Thank you for sharing. My love and prayers are with you. Be gentle and kind with yourself. {hugs} Suzie

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  9. I am sorry for your loss. What a lovely tribute. I aspire to become such a person that someone would want to "carry you in my heart and live the lessons you taught.. "

    You honor her. Thank you for stopping by.

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  10. I am sure she new how you loved her.What a blessing for you both.I am sorry she is gone from your sight.Thank you for describing the peace as she passed.Sharon

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  11. Sorry to hear of your loss, bless you both. A lovely tribute, it is a special thing to send your beloved ones on their way.

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  12. Such a sad but inspiring tale of loss.

    Thanks for Rewinding at the Fibro.

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  13. beautiful post, very well written and FULL of love. Im sorry to hear of your loss

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  14. I got a few goosebumps reading this post. It is indeed miraculous to be present at the end of a person's life. I think you experience the *true* essence of living. Sorry for your loss. Thanks for Rewinding x

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