what hasn't been written over the centuries about Love that I could possibly speak about anew... I am certainly no expert, with a plethora of
yet deep down in all of us is the basic need to Love and be Loved... the lifelong dream of the "right" one... sure Prince's on horseback and all that, but the basic life need to be wrapped in loving arms, held close, honoured and cherished... what drives us steadily onward to find our companion, the one to see us through thick or thin, steadfastly loyal and fiercely protective... for me, life's lessons in Love have been some of the most tender and heart wrenching I have experienced... the loss of a loved one, has the sharpest sting and the most long lasting emotion of all...
don't get me wrong, though the pain can be overwhelming, it damn sure makes you feel alive... at the very core is the understanding that what is gone, has changed me and left me with ideas and dreams battered, but somehow still able to see forward to the day they are fulfilled... looking forward to the day that "someone new" appears from behind the veil of time to take my hand and peer into my soul...
how I long to feel that rush of joy, longing to be encompassed in thoughts of that someone special who brightens my days, whose touch I crave, whose eyes sparkle at the sound of my voice and the caress of my hand upon their cheek... the fullness of my chest as I feel my heartbeat pound at the sight of them, the need to be near and share who I am and what I have... peeling off the layers in exploration of their life's journey, comparing notes about childhoods and crazy families... marking off the anniversaries of "firsts", first kiss, first family gathering, first argument, first make up... that rush of pride when you introduce them to friends and your secret wish that they be accepted in your friends eyes as "worthy of you" and knowing it doesn't matter if they do... the fading of past loves who once held this same magic touch, the love songs that sound just that much sweeter and more authentic... Love.. powerful, emotional, encompassing, exhilarating...
so I plod onwards, waiting for you, waiting to meet you and connect with you... I know you are on your way, working your path to intersect with mine when the time is right... molding your life and heart into the one who will hold my hand and walk with me... shaping your soul to fit perfectly with my own re-worked being, capable of recognizing who you are to be... when the last tear falls and is replaced by Hope, you will appear, ready to begin our journey together, the fabric of our voyage weaving into a fine tapestry of experiences... hold out your hand and I will take it in mine, all in Love we shall honour our time and pilgrimage and what has brought us to this moment...
for now, I remain, awaiting your approach and living the moments in anticipation of your glorious arrival...
dear Ry....this was indeed a very deep post of urs...don't u worry my friend..give 'time it's own time'..we have all gone through our own profound losses, that which either left wounds to get healed, or a feeling of emptiness which itself wondered if it could again be filled? Somehow I've always believed that everything has its moment and its time...yes learning is the most sensible thing to do..but more important than that is 'not repeating the old mistakes' which we eventually end up doing, as we get imbued in someone's love...tc. U'll find that someone special who'll love u for what u are! and I hope it lasts for ever.
ReplyDeleteAakriti, thank you for your wonderful comments... by no means have I given up the dream... I just find it fascinating this journey to an from Love.. this rollercoaster of emotions and joy.. keeps us alive!
ReplyDeleteEverything you have said here has struck such a nerve. That final paragraph just about sums up everything I've been feeling these past few months. I've become somewhat jaded and think about the fact that out of the billions of people on the planet the idea of finding the 'one' is ludicrous. Especially when I thought I'd found him. But we live and learn, right? Here's to Hope and what it brings our way. xox
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